Becoming Lady Draco's Premie

 Porn seems to effect my cock. Makes me get hard quickly and makes it twitch but I feel like I might be making it happen.  I also get some horny thoughts that I hadn't had before. It's like I get absorbed by what I'm seeing. I would also like to relax and give into the sensations but it feels like part of my conscious mind is stopping me from tipping over the edge.  Time will tell and I'm also trying to be more consistent with listening.  I want it so bad, I want that loss of control for Lady Draco.

 I have setup a lot of files playing at once with a main premature file playing like a makeshift brainwashing setup. Since listening to this I get harder quicker when looking at porn and get twitchy. I still haven't got to HFO yet and I feel so close. I also feel as if I'm missing something to push me over but I'm not sure what it is. There is all this urge and want to be a premature ejaculator but it's like my brain is stopping it from coming together.  I just want to look at sexual content and bust in my pants this loss of control is what I want to give to Lady Draco.  Again it feels as if I have so far to go and at the same time it feels like it's just around the corner. I haven't masturbated as I want this to happen like a real premature ejaculation and when i give to masturbate I want be able to as I'll cum just at the thought.  Is this too much to ask for ? Is hypnosis capable of changing me into this ? I want it to be. Is playing too much hypnosis at ...