Becoming Lady Draco's Premie

 I couldn't get comfortable in my trance so ultimately it was a failed night. But I'm still feeling twitching and turned on while looking at sexual pics and videos.  Tonight's listen will be good, sending out positive vibes to my subconscious mind. 

 Last night's trance very deep again. Nothing new while out of trance but I feel as if under trance things have changed. I feel as if I am a watcher of my own self as in I know what's happening but can't control it. One thing I notice with Lady Draco is I don't seem to get hard while under I do occasionally but other hypnosis makes me hard really quick. Her files tend to get me hard at certain stages and it feels more tied to arousal which I feel is getting stronger while under. I think I have turned a corner somewhere and am getting better at losing myself to Lady Draco.  Could this be the path to losing control in my pants ? Let's hope so as HFO and loss of control is something I want to get out of this.

 Last night's trance was so deep. I came too midway into a file was still deep but aware although not able to consciously be involved. My body was so turned on I was horny and just lost in the trance. When I woke from trance I rolled over and went to sleep.  I had such a good wet dream. I came to in my dream I remember being stuck like sleep paralysis and I was getting stroked really quick by what seemed to be my hand in my mind I then realised in a panicked state that my hands were on my chest. I then realised that it was a woman's hand and someone else was stroking me it felt so good it felt like Lady Draco was stroking me it didn't last long but the orgasm was so intense and blinding. I then fell a sleep and woke a little later with so much cum in my underwear. I don't remember any talking in the dream.  Is this my subconscious mind sorting through my hypnosis and suggestions, I would like to think so.

 Tried to listen last night but for some reason I just couldn't go into trance and get comfortable. Hopefully the effects will still accumulate. Trying to be the best premie for Lady Draco. 

 Porn seems to effect my cock. Makes me get hard quickly and makes it twitch but I feel like I might be making it happen.  I also get some horny thoughts that I hadn't had before. It's like I get absorbed by what I'm seeing. I would also like to relax and give into the sensations but it feels like part of my conscious mind is stopping me from tipping over the edge.  Time will tell and I'm also trying to be more consistent with listening.  I want it so bad, I want that loss of control for Lady Draco.

 I have setup a lot of files playing at once with a main premature file playing like a makeshift brainwashing setup. Since listening to this I get harder quicker when looking at porn and get twitchy. I still haven't got to HFO yet and I feel so close. I also feel as if I'm missing something to push me over but I'm not sure what it is. There is all this urge and want to be a premature ejaculator but it's like my brain is stopping it from coming together.  I just want to look at sexual content and bust in my pants this loss of control is what I want to give to Lady Draco.  Again it feels as if I have so far to go and at the same time it feels like it's just around the corner. I haven't masturbated as I want this to happen like a real premature ejaculation and when i give to masturbate I want be able to as I'll cum just at the thought.  Is this too much to ask for ? Is hypnosis capable of changing me into this ? I want it to be. Is playing too much hypnosis at ...